Entry #5
Per my previous entry, I think I've figured out why it all hurt so much. That person stopped believing in me and it shattered my own belief in myself because I held them in such high regard. That, coupled with ongoing guilt and victimhood over the whole saga has come back over the years to bite me in the ass and remind me of what the truth is. I must believe in myself FIRST. On this Pisces New Moon this is particularly poignant. Positive Pisces are the dancing fishes, exploring new realms of imagination and fantasy. Negative Pisces swims in a stagnant pool of its own filth, blaming themselves for everything and playing the victim to try to arouse sympathy, but all they get is pity. I know which Pisces I'd prefer to be.